Realignment

I boarded the plane from Hyderabad to Goa with tears in my eyes…I could barely believe that it was finally happening after all the obstacles and negativity…but I decided to do it anyway.

I quickly discovered that South Goa is a lot smaller than London, and now I can’t walk down the road without someone recognising me!

After some X-rays on Tuesday, I wasn’t surprised to learn that my hips were out of alignment and that my thoracic spine was also misaligned…two areas that hadn’t been investigated back in the UK. However I was surprised to learn that this was actually the cause of my neck, shoulder and arm pain as I have been continuously compensating for this imbalance.

My first realignment was intense. I could feel that I was still unsure and hadn’t really given myself over to the process. My body was tight, clenched and not so amenable to the adjustments being made – the voices of the naysayers still swirling in my head. The doctor could instinctively feel this and said he would be able to do more once I had more confidence in him. I left feeling spaced out and a bit overwhelmed.

It’s been a case of taking it day by day and so I have slowly been learning to let go and take things as they come.

My uncertainty has slowly waned and dissipated over the course of the week as I have met so many weird and wonderful people at the clinic, all of whom have reassured me that I will be out of pain and feeling amazing by the time I leave here. People are a bit confused to as to where I’m from – some think I’m Israeli, some say I am quite obviously Indian and someone else insists I look like Halle Berry – I’ll definitely take the last one!

When it came to my second realignment, I explained to the doctor that I really wanted to relax to get the most out of the treatment, and that I needed a bit more explanation as to what he was doing. Having got that off my chest, I felt so much more at ease and my body was much more loose…and so I am beginning to surrender. My goal is to be as relaxed as the little guy below, surrendering to the blazing afternoon sun, knowing that everything will be ok.